My brother never changes. His form does, his job may, his looks and even some times his voice but he does not. He does not talk after a death he carries on. He will have a time to reflect and remember but he will move on quickly. After a War, death, long trip, its no questions its to bath and to sleep. To escape for a time form people and duties he has to perform. He in a senses is my Mycroft. The older Brother that has all the answers. The one that guides. I the Homes, a junkie that gets off figuring out the why. Why someone says hugs for the world to see, when they love someone else. A few times a year he leaves and I’m alone. It’s hard to start with but as each day happens to come and go I under stand me more. He is him, I am me. Him Superman for the world to see, Me batman the detective always trying to find the “why”.
Its ok we are different in many ways we are the same in many also. We are always there when the other needs something. He hugged me once in this life was the Strange but familiar feeling. He is one thing to the world another in privet. But I know that he just wants one thing. Peace. He fights for peace. With family and with in himself. I know only the fight and he tries to temper my rage for even when I fall apart I do it with a violence of pend up emotion. He just got home and I asked my 2 questions I get before he closes down. Then its shower and the darkness of sleep. We all have demons he keeps his beneath him as a learned man will. I dance with my demons and fight with them. Love two women. Both hold my heart. One is the one I want and need, while one is the one I protect and save. Both love me. One understands. One never will. I can’t live my life like my brother does.
I can pick things that work for me but I cant live someone else’s life. Life is out there. I have hid long enough. I know that both women love me. They always will one for who I am, one for what I do. Its taken me life times to understand this and now I’m at peace. I can go home to the woman I miss greatly.
My brother will be home soon also and he will camp on the front lawn and annoy my Wife. She knows he is my Brother and like all families there are many colors to it. from Red to gray/blue to mercury to black even greens. We all are parts to the whole. Family is not always who your born or hatched with. It’s people that will always be there. what is a family? It is not always sharing blood.
Its sometimes. Just being there when there is a need or a call. No matter how many times you burn down a tavern or forget to pay back the gold. Use his shield to cook with. Its knowing that the other person will not ignore your call for help even if you don’t know your making the call.