You can have the sound of a thousand voices calling your name. You can have the light of the world blind you, bathe you in grace. But I don’t see so easily what you hold in your hands. Cause castles crumble, kingdoms fall and turn into sand.
You can be an angel of mercy or give into hate. You can try to buy it just like it every other careless mistake. How do you justify I’m mystified by the ways of your heart. With a million lies the truth will rise to tear you apart.
No one gets out alive, every day is do or die. The one thing you leave behind. Is how did you love, how did you love? It’s not what you believe; those prayers will make you bleed. But while you’re on your knees. How did you love, how did you love, how did you love?
Shinedown ” How do you love”
Life is not for the weak. No one gets out alive. Very morbid and dark views. As a friend tells me every day some truths are universal. People do things with out thinking. They do things that to them seams smart and a good choice. If they step back and look at it from both sides its really kinda shitty. Winter is setting in and I watch as some of my facebook friends lives are changing. Some are getting a new home after working 20 hours a day. The Pictures of Lexi on the top are of her changing her look because fuck it why not.
Just so you know I swear sometimes a lot so read at your own peril.
Something happened to me earlier this week no I wont go into it but it was like really. I have mental issues and something will cause my alter ego come out. Its drastic changes and surprises. Well a friend tossed a hand grenade at me I nicely sent it back. Is what it is their life is going side ways.
So I spent a few days looking at it and what I cam up with is this. People will act or react with out thinking. we all do it. I will make you pay for a long time for a non thinking comment. A pound of flesh is it right? No. But ya I do it. Broad brush statement in 3. 2. 1. Some women will say nothing is wrong for weeks till you drag it out of them. Sorry I played that gave for 25 years with 2 different people, not doing it any more. Tell me or let it go, you holding on to it and it festering only makes it worse.
Hurt feelings are an infection that will poison things. Friendships, Lover, work, even family. Talk about it or let it go. DONT CALL AND SAY “WHAT ARE YOU DOING?” If you think you see an anomaly. ASK. If your feelings are hurt say something.
Look people again, NO ONE GETS OUT ALIVE. Some think you get reincarnated. Some know they have lived other lives. Science says that the universe expands and contracts and you do this over and over.
Life is lets say 80 years. The first 40 we try so hard to get ahead. Then the last 40 we have regrets of I should have.
I met some one coming off the escalators at Macy’s. She changed my life for bad and for GOOD. But I had to take the chance to meet her. To take a ride to PA to meet dear friends. Do I have regrets? HELL YES. I lost 20 years in a bad marriage. We both were not good for each other. thank who ever are son was not fucked up for life. Here is the rub.
IF you did not make the choices you made, you would not be here today with that special some one. let that sink in. All the fights, bad dates. The shit jobs, bad days and yes wrong choices have lead you to this place.
The skein of your life may have been woven along time ago. but the choices you make are all part of that tapestry.
The reds from the blood spilled. The deep blues the sad times. The greens from all your envious actions. The black all your anger. But the absences of color is black. All the colors make white. So you need all the colors in your tapestry. Die with few regrets. you will have some. The person you should have asked out. The job you should have taken. The right turn when you went left.
No one gets out alive. So make your life. I’m playing poker and I’m good at it. Lexi is starting to model. Others as I said have worked 20 hours to make a life for her kids. Every day is do or die. Even a day spent healing is a victory.
So what are you going to do. Vikings want to die in battle. Some want to die in their sleep. Some want to live so safe that nothing happens. Riddle me this and riddle me that….. Is a life UN-lived a life well lived or missed?