A funny thing happened to day. I woke up. The sun was shining, there was no clouds, it was like this out side also. I could walk. I had a friend that would look over my shoulder to make sure I was not getting complacent. A friend that never misses a good morning no matter what country she is in. A friend that may help me with some work. and a Friend that even after a ruff few years says morning.
Its a hard thing waking up from a nightmare. I have lost a lot along the way. But what I have gained will never be replaced. I lost a girlfriend But re-found one of my best friends. She in turn re-found someone and is happy as she could be. I helped that happen. I saved her from a horrid life. I also broke her heart and opened the door for some one else. But she is happy because I helped make it happen.
For years I was sad and in mourning for friends that are no longer around and wonder why them and not me. the answer is clear I was not done. I’m here for a different reason.
I’m good at cards. I’m going to make it. I will fall and cut my self up. But ” Chick’s dig scars.” I’m learning to lose with grace, honor, and dignity. I’m doing this with every hand, every rejection letter. You need to lose 1000’s times to be ready to win.
- Thomas Edison’s teachers said he was “too stupid to learn anything.” He was fired from his first two jobs for being “non-productive.” As an inventor, Edison made 1,000 unsuccessful attempts at inventing the light bulb. When a reporter asked, “How did it feel to fail 1,000 times?” Edison replied, “I didn’t fail 1,000 times. The light bulb was an invention with 1,000 steps.”
I have helped many people along the way. This has taught me many great things. It’s now time for me. I understand I’m going home. I want to make my waiting a good time. I send out my applications. I watch my poker to see the trends. I do my clinical from my poker coach. I play almost every day. I’m glad she is happy as she can be. I’m glad I can help my British Mum when I can. My Brother I can never repay, although I’m sure he will come up with a number. And as for my friend that may help me with work. Well she held my hand for a year. Its time for me to repay that debt. Some one once said no debts amongst friends. this is not always the case. An emotional debt needs to be repaid. I hope she can send me some work.
I also have friends that read tarot cards for me. A friend in South Carolina that is always there just to talk. these people I will never forget either. so thank you.
But the sun is shining and I can walk. Its a good day