You can go 6 days and have good days you can have a call that goes really well. You can change bad habits and have gains in poker. You can be in different pants like from a size 50 to a size 38. But when the night rolls in the room gets cool. It’s at that point it all circles the drain and you find your self on the floor wanting to go…………
Ashes to ashes and dust that is us, When the Night approaches and the fear is a must. to close your eyes you hate but you must. The sleep of the dead is your only friend.
The bed is cold, the arms do hurt, for the issue is you forgot now you hurt. sleep will come and so will the pain. the issue is, its all en-vane. You try to smile, you try not to hurt. At the end of the day sleep is a must. you know of the pain of the cold all at once, move on they say its easy its a Must.
So back once a gain to ashes to ashes and the time now is dusk. the pain still grows but sleep is a must….
I have PTSD not a shocker there and I awhile ago Me and my Best friend broke up from dating. She got married I’m still single. NO that’s not what this is about. It’s about holding onto “Things”. I’m talking about cloths, and stupid things that in the long run really are of little value. Example I lived with friends of mine for a time and one of my friends spent 3 hours sawing a pair of pants back together because I could not let them go. yes I said that a pair of pants. I’m not talking about pictures or rings or jewelry. Clothes, belts, shoes, lighters (non metal ones). So some force is making me leave that crap behind last night my lighter broke My former bought me. Today my belt broke. Ok I lost 75 pounds sooooo I needed to replace it any ways. Her and I chat, we are not bitter we do not fight Any more and a hole lot less. She is married I’m happy that I helped her find happiness. I have posted how I have helped 6 people grow and have a new start on life. As I said some never help one and a priest would say if they can save one soul their life’s work would be complete. I have 6. I guess if I was a fighter pilot I would be an Ace plus 1. So some power that I can not see is forcing me to leave the old behind. Its a good thing I know. Never said it was not just saying it hurts. My arms still hurt. I’m still cold. I still hurt. I can not carry that which is not mine. I can only carry what is mine. I will always lover her. We stayed friends. It could have been much worse. So I go kicking and screaming into the future. But I’m Going.
What at first makes things better. Then makes things uncomfortable. Then kills things like relationships?
how you ask well lets walk through it.
You meet some one you like and things they do may make you itch but nothing to get excited about. Being late. Not telling you when plans change. Forgetting things. No big deal.
They make decisions and don’t tell you till its the day of even. They do things and don’t see if you are bothered by it.
You forget how to talk to each other you become complacent and now everything eats at you. And you look back at stage one and say I should not have stayed Silent….
For too long now, there were secrets in my mind
For too long now, there were things I should have said
In the darkness…I was stumbling for the door
To find a reason – to find the time, the place, the hour
Waiting for the winter sun, and the cold light of day
The Tears of the Dragon – Bruce Dickinson
Dragons tears. . . burn like acid why you will ask… There is a myth that all dragons breathe fire this is not true. Are breath does burn but not all is fire. Great reds bellow fourth fire. Black dragons and Shadow dragons exhale poison that burns the eyes skin and lungs. Blue and Mountain dragons discharge great bolts of lightning that burn also. and the Icy and White dragons breath a blast of cold that will burn with a bitter cold to name a few…..
The tears of a dragon are always an acid that is the poison we revive on a daily hourly minutely bases. Creatures look at us and marvel at the size the power the strength. The words and weapons used against us do little to the ancient ones scar the old and will cut and harm the young and adolescent. To become ancient you have taking all the slings and arrows and absorbed them and melted theme down and the words you here becomes the catalyst to make the acid for the tear. We hear all the words, we remember all the hate, the anger against us. The hurt and hate that we cause echoing in our hearts minds and ears. and it becomes an acid the can not be counter acted it is worse than any acid man can conceive. Druids rage against us, Elves tread gently near us humans fear us and vampires mistrust us (some love us)((some both at the same time)). So when the tears of a dragon fall do your best to stay clear. For the acid is so strong its been known to dissolve the strong bonds of all Love and Friendship. In very small amounts