“Who knows what evil lurks in the hearts of men?
Opening to the Radio show “the shadow”
I hate people not a person but people. What is the different you ask. Well people are heard animals, reactionary, with a mob mentality, a group think if you will. A person has independent thought, Ideals, can feel and even has compassion. The pictures above are of two woman I know. there is one is of me. The women are all dark, gothic and breathtakingly beautiful. Each have shown me kindness one I will never meet in person ( well one says never say never) one I dated. They all have smiled at a stranger and lifted his hopes. One was gliding down an escalator at Macy’s when My heart stopped. As stated many time I’m a large ball of arrogant, harsh asshole, with a thin candy coating of charming. The last picture is of me from Sept. 1st 2014 till now Nov. 3rd 2015 I have lost 18 inches and 78 pounds. . I would grow it all back if I could go back in time for 24 hours and tell MYSELF what the future holds for him. That would be me being kind to my self. I still call my self a Fat man, I tell my self I’m stupid for what I have done. I’m a loser for losing Raina the best thing I ever had. Hell I could bring my self up on charges for slander. If I was Married to my self I could get a divorce for verbal abuse. The woman in the pictures have shown more kindness than I have shown my self. For full disclosure one will from time to time say ” that’s great But you still…. ” it’s a left-handed compliment that she is working on stopping. Kali Noir Diamond a gothic model that have every right to just say “thank you” and never give it a second thought. What she did, chatted, smiled and gave a kind word to a strange. The Beautiful woman at Macy’s did not have to have lunch with me but she did. She did not have to invite me to make a life with her but she did. All acts of kindness to a person that self-abuse.
“Who knows what evil lurks in the hearts of men? The Dragon knows!”,
I’m trying hard to stop but I fail. . a lot . . I keep trying. . I have started telling friends to stop with the negative help also. . when I want to think about what if I had done this different….. LET ME for a min it lessens the pain.. Don’t keep hammering home will did you ever think your meant to be here now so you can grow. . Yes I think of that often. So from the Darkest places of the Goth world Three Gothic woman bent over to make an wounded Dragon smile and stand back up.