Its funny why when someone breaks a promise, the first thing they say when you ask them for something is I promise. I have people around me that I love but I often feel they just do not read. Ok they read but they miss the point of the blog. I read my blog the fat kid to some one…. they half heard what I said. Their reply was sorry but never said any thing about the blog. I have a friend ask how they can make me more at ease with somethings. They say they under stand and will, then promptly say why they did not do it, or they find reasons why they could not get it done or just forget one hour after they say they will. They try to make it up after they are reminded about their promise. They make some last-ditch effort. You know they forgot and you feel like you mean very little to them. They say I had a lot on my mind, I just forgot, it was a busy day. I have a list that I have had used on me. How do you believe someone when they have a track record of this. Does the statement I promise mean so little. I have promised to try to learn to fly. To change my ways with hygiene, and life habits. I hear how proud they are, but where is their side of the bargain. As I write this I fear that I will lose someone very dear to me. They keep hurting me. They say they love me. If you love me why do you hurt me. It may seem small to you. It may seem stupid to you. To someone with mental issues. PTSD, Depression, they look forward to that time, that chat, that picture. The sad part is when they don’t fill their side of a promise you wonder if you die would they care, would you be missed? If you stopped calling, stopped texting, stopped emailing would they miss you?? In my heart I hope they would call but I don’t know and that is what is so sad.