“This was the most unkindest cut of all”
Julius Caesar Act 3, scene 2, 181–186
We all say things, we all do things. we tease and have sarcastic cuts that fend people off people. For me its to fend off the unthinking and the unkind. Ok the rude and the stupid I said it. What we some times find is that when you sit and talk. As Agent K says want some pie slick. . It’s not the magic of Pie (3.14 sorry wrong Pi) it’s the magic that comes from stopping and talking. I have had a chance to reconnect with my best friend and find out that what I ever wanted was always there. This is where I take my leave of the Ice castle find my cave and ride with another Dragon, A Dragon that I have taken this ride with before and its a sad long and very eventful trip, at the end however is a place seldom seen its called home. I may find home again around here but a lot of things have to fall into place. Some very sad things. Would mean heart-break for some one I think of more than I think of my own needs, Which that is saying something because as you may know a Dragons needs can be very vast and great . Remember there is always room for ice cream or pie. Magic and a sliver of home where ever you are.
“To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow, Creeps in this petty pace from day to day, To the last syllable of recorded time;” Macbeth Act 5, scene 5, 19–28
We will do better tomorrow… We all suck at something I have issues with self loathing, some are selfish, some cannot keep promises, some have the persona of not caring, some have to be the politician WE ALL HAVE an issue that we suck at and we keep saying we will do better. BULL SHIT do better today. When I fight with some one ANY THING EVER SAID IS FAIR GAME. . . No it’s not, some bull shit from 2 years ago IF YOU DID NOT settle it than it’s not fair game. . . and if you did settle it leave it dead and gone. . . 2 of my best friends have had to on may occasions deal with this they are amazing and strong and wonderful far more than I deserve. . I have a friend that if I’m going to a no return fight and can take one person to watch my back I know who he is…. We have issues start working on them now not tomorrow. . . . yesterday is the past tomorrow, the dream it’s called the present because every day is a gift don’t destroy your gift with issues that can be fixed……
“Anyone can achieve their fullest potential, who we are might be predetermined, but the path we follow is always of our own choosing. We should never allow our fears or the expectations of others to set the frontiers of our destiny. Your destiny can’t be changed but, it can be challenged. Every man is born as many men and dies as a single one.” ― Martin Heidegger
Every morning is a new day with hope and the need to be filled. We fill it how we see fit, memories of the past, old hatreds, and very seldom hope. Why is that because some one has taken, NO check that . .
we have given hope up and replaced it with some thing else. In my case its self loathing and bitterness. Peoples actions say volumes and they do not see it. you can’t say you love some one and then do 3 harsh things to them in 30 mins. . actions/words. I try to help and to give but some times that giving is never repaid its taken with a thank you and a nod. . and your left with a whole. . if you take replace its a simple concept if you take my kindness replace it with kindness. . If you don’t you have little to stand on when I snap and you say can’t you give me any thing. . . NO I can’t. . sorry . . . I tried my stores are empty there is this thing called and emotional bank account. In a friendship, relationship or even the work place. it works like this a smile 5 buck a hello how are things 20 bucks etc.. when you need it it’s there and when your snarly this account pays out. Well at some point the in and out need to match or you go in to the red… You can’t constantly with draw and not pay back. . I have had my share on both sides of this. me and my Best friend are so over drawn on each other that no mater what we do it just causes more over draft. . . In the long run we hope,.. WELL I hope that the friend ship that is saved, one in which I hold more valuable than gold will prove worth the over draft and pain. So we start each day as many people and at the end of days we are but one man/woman. how do you want to be remembered as a good person as a person that did not care or one whose actuations did not match their words, many ways to end but in the end you will be only remembered as one way to one person HOW do you want to be remembered????????
Day 35: “There’s a thin line between love and hate. Maybe you’re confusing your emotions.”
― Simone Elkeles, Perfect Chemistry
Google gives me this “ Opposite of love is NOT Hate. why, Because in love people have feeling and think about other person. And in Hate it is same with different intentions. Opposite of Love or Hate is Apathy”
What intentions? In either case the opposite is the same, apathy. . . I know you don’t care …. We some times find that when we hate someone we really love them. Playing hard to get is a form of this. There are feeling in both, you hate things your best friend does, but there still your best friend. Sometimes we do things to get noticed if we feel we are forgotten. Sometimes we saying the wrong thing, do the wrong things to piss some one-off on purpose. You want their attention. (Something you have not had in a long time.) passion or lust / protection or jealousy / love or hate. They are all the same, just the spelling and the view is different. In most cases you don’t fight with some one you don’t care about, you fight with some one you think highly of, in most cases you don’t do things to piss people off because they mean ZERO, You want them to remember you. . . I have a friend that we do this to each other. She is self-centered and I’m hard to live with. We do and say things because we are both hurting. We both have love for each other but for over a year we pretty much wanted the other persons attention. The only way we got it was TO PISS THE OTHER OFF. You know what you do/did, you know how you say/said it, or how you mean/meant it…. There is still love there along with hurt. Stop showing how your hate me. . . . I know you’re hurting, how about we both stop pissing the other off and we find a Middle ground. . . Never take someone’s hope away it makes you ugly and selfish. that’s not a good look for anyone